RAGGGGRRRRRRRRHHHHHHH.
I WANT GRENDEL BY JOHN GARDNER.
AND I HAVE TO TORTURE MYSELF BY REFRAINING FROM READING THE SUMMARY ON WIKIPEDIA.

It's all because of this artist on dA. I think she's studying to be an illustrator, and she did illustrations for Grendel and posted them up. Now I'm in love, and I need the book.
Apparently it was written in 1971? That was... long ago.
I can't find the book for Wicked either. March holidays, come quickly. I need to go to Borders. Because my mum won't let me order online >___>